Author: Jill Wismer

  • Fibromyalgia:  The Other “F” Word

    Fibromyalgia: The Other “F” Word

    Karma’s a bitch. 

    Years ago, when I was young and nubile and oh-so-ignorant, I remember having a conversation with my mother during one of my visits.

    We were discussing an acquaintance of hers that had been ill with this new, “phantom” disease called fibromyalgia. According to my mother, this friend had been battling sore joints and constant pain, and had not been able to find any physical cause for her discomfort.

    And I, in ALL my self-righteous glory, and clearly still brainwashed with the put-up-or-shut-up training mentality beaten into me from my years of training as a figure skater in the seventies and eighties, said with a side eye and more than just a little sarcasm;

    “Sounds like it’s all in her head.”

    I still cringe when I remember that conversation.

    Cut to more than 20 years later, and my life has been irrevocably altered from fibromyalgia.  I wonder if it’s the fates’ way of teaching me a lesson in empathy, or just dumb luck. 

    Either way, it’s no picnic.

    So, you may ask…… 

    What exactly is fibromyalgia?

    Short answer

    Fibromyalgia is PAIN.

    EVERYWHERE.

    Now, for the long answer, I’ll put on my “scholarly cap” and quote the Mayo Clinic definition of fibromyalgia for those of you who like more scientific jargon.

    According to the Mayo Clinic website, “ Fibromyalgia is a disorder characterized by widespread musculoskeletal pain accompanied by fatigue, sleep, memory and mood issues. Researchers believe that fibromyalgia amplifies painful sensations by affecting the way your brain processes pain signals.” (Aug.11,2016)

    The key symptoms I have encountered with my fibro are:

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    • Chronic pain and stiffness in my joints, particularly in the morning.  I’m not talking just a little bit of stiffness.  I’m talking put-on-a-suit-of-armor-and-try-to-walk-down-the-stairs stiffness.
    • Chronic muscle aches, and, just like my joint pain, this can be ANYWHERE.  Sometimes my fibro attacks my hips, sometimes my hands, fingers and ankles, sometimes my neck and spine….it’s always a new and exciting surprise to see where my fibro will attack each day.
    • Fatigue through out the day. The pep talks I have to give myself to get vertical each morning are getting longer and more ridiculous as the months go by.
    • The inability to get a restful nights sleep. There is nothing worse than sleeping for 8 hours and waking up feeling even less rested than you were the night before. Often, my body feels like I’ve been hit by a Mack truck.
    • Fibro flare ups that can last anywhere from 4 days to 4 months. When I overdo it, I pay for it. The worst flare I ever had lasted 4 months. You know the pain you feel when you’ve had a really hard work out? Now take that, multiply it times ten, and make it last for 120 days without any relief.

    Yup, that’s a fibro flare up.

    Good times.

    • Incredible tenderness to the touch in some not-so-convenient areas. My hips often become so tender to the touch I can’t sleep on my side for more than 5 minutes before the pain and pressure becomes too intense. And DON’T GET ME STARTED on how it feels to wear a bra when you are a fibro sufferer!
    • Fibro fog. Basically, you are so freaking tired that even linking one thought to the next can be difficult. Say bye-bye to executive function and hello to a non-existent short-term memory. To be fair, I’ve had two concussions in the past five years, so some of those deficits are also linked to these events. (Yay for me!)
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    The “experts” will tell you that fibromyalgia is simply your body’s pain signals gone awry. When a house is on fire, a siren sounds so the firemen can come out to extinguish the flames. When your body is in trouble, your nervous system sounds the “pain” siren to let you know there is a problem.

    Fibromyalgia is your brain thinking there is a four-alarm fire and ringing the alarm, even though nothing is wrong.

    Why does your body do this? Well, there are many possible theories, though nothing has been proven beyond a reasonable doubt. There are definitely pre-cursors that seem to be linked to the onset of fibromyalgia, disease or trauma being the most prevalent.

    For myself, in the five years before I developed fibro I experienced, in chronological order:

    Infertility

    Divorce

    A high risk pregnancy with morning sickness so severe I had to be hospitalized.

    A head injury from falling on the ice when I was 5 months pregnant.

    A move across country when I was 6 months pregnant.

    A difficult birth and raising a special needs child (as a single mother) who never slept for the first 2 years of her life.

    A second head injury from a fall on the ice.

    Even with all of these pre-cursors to fibromyalgia in my medical history, when I brought up my symptoms to my doctor and REPEATEDLY told her something was wrong, it was very evident she did not believe me. Sadly, many doctors still do not believe in fibromyalgia to this day, which causes so much pain and suffering for those who suffer and go without the support they need.

    For a more in-depth synopsis of the causes and symptoms of fibro, check out WebMD.

    So, is there a cure? No. Some anti-depressants and anti-seizure medications are prescribed because, for some reason they tend to decrease the pain and fatigue in fibro patients. I’ve tried two of them, and both times, the side effects outweighed the benefits to the point I simply couldn’t continue.

    And don’t get me started on the withdrawal from these meds.

    WORST I have EVER felt physically.

    Honestly, when I’m not in a flare up, life is not bad. I’m a little more tired than I used to be, and I have never slept well in my entire life, so I don’t know any differently.

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    But, here’s the kicker, you live in constant fear of provoking a flare.

    If I do too much, if I stay on my feet too long, if I exercise the wrong way (anaerobic exercise is a no-no now) I pay for it.

    And pay.

    And pay.

    And no one knows or believes you are suffering, because you still look the same. I might walk slower when I have fibro, but here is no outward sign of the disease, and that’s the stink of it all.

    So for me, fibro is my new F word. It rules how I live my life, and dictates what I can do, and for how long I can do it.

    Every. Single. Day.

    FU#@!

  • Skating Clubs: What Makes a Good Executive?

    Skating Clubs: What Makes a Good Executive?

    A skating club executive sets the tone for the rest of its membership; how the people on the executive treat each other, the skaters, the coaches and the parents who participate in their club determines the climate and culture for the entire organization.

    I have noticed over my years teaching in many different clubs there are certain things that successful club executives have in common. 

    After compiling a list, I’ve whittled it down to ten important traits for any skating club executive to create, grow a and nurture a positive and successful culture.

    •  They Listen

    Successful club executives listen to their membership.  Even if they don’t agree with everything they hear, they are always ready to listen, understand and empathize.  To know that your opinion is respected and valued by those at the highest level of any organization is a powerful thing.  It fosters good will from all members and encourages them to have more ownership in the direction and success of that organization.

    • They Know They Don’t Know Everything

    Successful club executives realize they don’t know everything about figure skating, and that’s okay. A healthy Board of Directors is always willing to learn new things and grow in new directions, and they aren’t afraid to ask for help and advice, particularly utilizing the extensive knowledge found within their coaching staff.  If the people at the top levels of the organization have a growth mindset, this will filter down to all levels of membership. Check out more about Mindset by reading my book review here

    •  They Don’t Lose Sight of the Forest for the Trees

    A successful club executive realizes that sometimes the spirit of the law is more important than the letter of the law.  Sometimes, blind adherence to rules and regulations that restrict an athletes’ ability to gain the ice time they need or participate in the programs necessary to progress can be detrimental to skaters, coaches and the health and longevity of the club in general.  The bigger picture must always be taken into consideration.

    •  They Defer to the Coaches in All Things Skating

    Would you go to your child’s school and sit in on the teacher’s class, critiquing the curriculum and their teaching methods?  A strong executive doesn’t micromanage their coaching staff.  They allow them to develop and implement the programs as they see fit, and they support them along the way.  When coaches feel valued and appreciated, their loyalty, commitment, and job appreciation grows exponentially.

    •  They Do their Jobs Well

    If a skating club is to be run well, those at the executive level must know the roles and responsibilities of their positions and execute those duties efficiently.  This means attending meetings regularly, and educating themselves in the role they have been elected for. When everyone knows what they are supposed to do, a club runs at maximum efficiency.

    •  They Communicate Regularly and Effectively

    A strong youth organization will spare no expense to communicate to its members in a timely, organized and knowledgeable fashion.  When people have the information they need, before they even realize they need it, they trust that their needs are being met and are more likely to stick with that organization.  Knowledge of procedures, registration dates, session regulations, etc. creates a feeling of security and control and makes for a club that runs like a well-oiled machine.

    •  They Acknowledge and Reward Good Work

    There’s nothing worse than feeing like you are not seen, heard or valued for your efforts and contributions.  Those clubs that recognize initiative, creativity, dedication, hard work and loyalty create a workplace for coaches and a training environment for athletes that is dynamic, supportive and positive. This positivity and support encourages people to continue stepping outside of the box, creating new programs and initiatives that further the sport.  In short, positivity breeds positivity, creating a self-fulfilling prophecy in any organization.

    • They Always Look at the “Big Picture”

    Call it vision, call it a mission statement, but whatever you call it, it matters.  A successful board of directors of any skating club will spend some time on creating a shared vision for it’s members, and they revisit this vision on a regular basis, making sure to communicate this mandate to their membership often and consistently.  Every decision must then be compared with the goals and philosophy of the club’s vision, and every decision must benefit as many people as possible.  It sounds like a simple thing, but having a shared vision is vital to the longevity, growth and success of every single skating club or youth organization.

    • They Lead by Example

    There are two types of people in this world; those who talk the talk, and those who walk the walk.  If you want to create a club where everyone treats people with honour, integrity and respect, then you had better lead by example and treat your membership this way.  As coaches, we are always aware that we must model the behaviour we would like to see from our students; club executives need to do the same.  If you lead with kindness, integrity and inclusiveness, these values will trickle down to every part of the club structure.

    • They are Transparent

    Nothing good ever grows in the dark.  (except maybe, mushrooms, I LOVE mushrooms, especially in a great white wine and garlic sauce…but I digress) The Executive of ANY youth organization needs to be absolutely and utterly transparent in every part of it’s process.  Reasons for decisions made need to be made public, along with milestones achieved, money spent, and any other topic or issue that affects the membership in any way.  It’s simply good business.

    As simple as these ten characteristics sound, it is rare to find a skating club that incorporates them on a regular basis.  Those that do stand out.  Those that don’t fail to thrive, often cycling through coaching staff and losing skaters on a regular basis.  It would be beneficial of every new club executive to thoroughly educate themselves on the sport AND these attributes if they want to provide an optimum climate for athletes to enjoy their skating journeys.

    Do you have any other characteristics you’ve found that make for a supportive and growth minded skating club? Share in the comments below!

  • A Book Review of “InSideOut Coaching, How  Sports Can Transform Lives” by Joe Ehrmann

    A Book Review of “InSideOut Coaching, How Sports Can Transform Lives” by Joe Ehrmann

    Product:  InSideOut Coaching, How Sports Can Transform Lives by Joe Ehrmann

    Price:  Kindle Price CDN $24.99

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    My Rating: 9 /10

    Overview:  Anyone who has ever grown up inside the belly of organized sport can attest to the many valuable lessons taught daily to those who participate.  Sports, both competitive and recreational, can impact young bodies and minds in ways that are immeasurable. 

    However, sport also provides an arena where harm can and often is meted out to those who play by those who often have the greatest influence on them: their coaches.

    Joe Ehrmann dissects the good, the bad and the ugly in organized sports specifically in the field of coaching. Through sharing his own experiences in life and in sport, Ehrmann achingly details how young and fragile youth can be further victimized by well meaning but unwitting coaches; coaches who are trying to work out their own issues but instead end up projecting these issues on players.

    Thought provoking and often disturbing, (warning; there may be triggers for sexual assault victims in reading this book), the author courageously illustrates how certain pivotal and traumatic life events created a foundation of vulnerability and sadness, which left him open to be influenced for the greater good, or, unfortunately, greater harm by his coaches.

    Joe Ehrmann leaves no stone unturned as he navigates the complicated waters of inter-relationships in sport.  Between outdated stereotypes of masculine and feminine roles, win-at-all costs sport culture, the stresses of the times we live in, familial dysfunction, and lack of values-based coaching, he paints a comprehensive picture of the problems young athletes face today and what coaches can do to help them successfully chart their own course.

    Starting with each coach turning their reflection inward by focusing on their own personal demons, and finishing with a complete road map for how to create your own InSideOut Coaching culture, this book shines a light on every nook and cranny of the coaching world.

    Best Feature of the Book:  The author writes this book in a very organized step-by-step way, first detailing the turning point in his life that started him on the “InSideOut” journey, next breaking down the positive and negative interactions and revelations into thoughtful and easy to understand categories within the sport continuum, and finally, detailing the steps he took to re-create the sport model with his newfound knowledge. This provides a very easy to follow narrative with a clear road map to incorporating the ideas he presents.

    Pros:  There are very few books that deal specifically with the coach-athlete interaction and the profound affect it can have on young people.  Ehrmann takes his wealth of experience and helps each of us see (either through the lens of the athlete or the lens of the coach) our own strengths and weaknesses.  Ehrmann then helps us clarify what we need to fix, and gently leads us to our own conclusions about the steps we can take to be better, simply by setting the example for us to follow.

    Cons:  While I enjoyed Ehrmann’s writing style, I found sometimes he spent too long on topics, often to the point of redundancy.  There were times where I as a reader had received the message and was ready to move on to the next chapter, and he was still fleshing out the point at hand with more examples.  However, this is more likely attributed to my get-it-done attitude than anything else and certainly did nothing to take away from the overall message.

    The other con I found while reading this book is it will trigger some negative memories.  As a victim of abuse, both inside and outside of sport, and more specifically, as someone damaged by transactional coaching, reading this book did bring back some of the old fear, anxiety, guilt and sadness related to those memories. However, just knowing that I wasn’t the only one that had these experiences was enough to help me get through them with some valuable insight and understanding.

    Conclusion:  If you want to be a better coach, for yourself, and for all the young men and women you can and will influence over the course of your career, you need to read this book.

  • Walking a Tightrope Between Parent of a Child with ADHD and Dance Mom

    Walking a Tightrope Between Parent of a Child with ADHD and Dance Mom

    I always knew my daughter was different, right from the womb. Not better or worse, just different. People tried to normalize her activity level, her issues with socialization, and her fears as “all kids have fears” but I knew she was different right from the get go.

    So now that we have a formal diagnosis of ADHD and anxiety, I am in the process of deciding whether to medicate for the ADHD symptoms, which is a dilemma in itself. ( I am convinced she is also gifted, and there may be other learning issues, but as we don’t have benefits there is no way I can afford a psycho-educational assessment right now.)

    I am a single parent. I work three jobs and home school my daughter because attending normal school became untenable….she suffered bullying and difficulties through out her first three years into grade 1, so much so that her physical symptoms of school avoidance, tummy aches, nightmares, outbursts, and constipation were dominating our lives.

    WHEN YOUR 5 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER STARTS TO TALK ABOUT KILLING HERSELF BECAUSE SHE WILL NEVER HAVE FRIENDS AT SCHOOL, YOUR HEART SHATTERS.

    But, I did my best to manage the symptoms of anxiety, because through junior and senior kindergarten, she was described as a “rock star” by her teachers, so I saw that there was value from her attending school.

    I should have known not to get complacent.

    Within a month of starting grade 1, my amazingly brilliant child who I couldn’t keep up with at home in regards to her curiosity and thirst for knowledge was suddenly behind in everything when the education style moved from learner driven to curriculum driven in grade 1. Suddenly, over the course of one summer, she went from being a “rock star” to being behind in every subject.

    It’s been a bumpy, ride, and I couldn’t love my daughter more. She is brilliant, and funny, and a true performer, and a caring and sweet little girl.

    But, she is exhausting. And I feel guilty for feeling exhausted by her…it’s a never ending cycle…lol. ( I laugh because if I cry I will never stop, and laughing is better)

    Today, I’d like to talk about my current dilemma in our neuroatypical saga.

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    My daughter is a competitive dancer, and here’s my concern. We have been been four years at the same dance studio. She has been competing on the performance group for 3 of those years. She has been a performer from birth and she shines when she is in the spotlight.

    I have also found that she does better socializing in her dance group because they are all there for a common goal and they have constant direction in their lessons, so it is easier for her to read social cues and navigate the landscape.

    Not to mention the outlet for her creativity and energy is a godsend.

    But there are issues. My daughter is hypersensitive, and always has been. Things that would not bother other kids will bring her to tears and she will fixate on them for weeks.

    Several of her instructors give feedback in ways that I do not deem appropriate.

    Now, a little background on me. I am a national level figure skating coach with a degree in Kinesiology. I have been coaching for 30 years and my life’s work has been all about learning how to teach young students, and how to give feedback. I have lost count of the papers I have written and the other coaches I have mentored in terms of helping them learn how to coach young athletes, and I myself never stop learning and trying to better myself and how I teach my skaters.

    So I know what I am talking about when I see feedback given in a manner that is not conducive to building self-esteem.

    And I feel that these particular teachers need to be aware that some of their dancers are not good with always being told negative things with no positive to balance them, or being singled out publicly when they are corrected.

    This is hard to handle for a neurotypical athlete, let alone an athlete with my daughters issues.

    I have emailed constructive feedback, asking for some compromise in how feedback is given. I have also worked consistently with the studio in terms of sharing my daughters issues and her diagnosis. I have given them a wonderful website with a list of coaches strategies for working with athletes with ADHD and anxiety, and I have countless one on ones with the instructors. I have bought private lessons for my daughter to help her with the smaller details of dance and her focus (group lessons are hard for her due to so much going on).

    The problem is, nothing is changing. She still feels singled out. She still struggles with the way the instructors teach, and the studio is extremely disorganized. I can never be sure the information I give to the owner/director is being passed down to the teachers. Her private lessons were discontinued due to scheduling on their end, and despite repeated attempts to re-book, because my daughter loves them and they help her tremendously, nothing has been done.

    I know that this is likely to be an issue at most dance studios, because from my experience, most coaches are not well-versed on the differences between neurotypical and neuroatypical athletes. If we change studios, it becomes a 45 minute drive to find a new one, and I am already stretched to the limit.

    Photo by Alexander Dummer

    I’m at a loss. I feel like that parent that always has to advocate, and I catch myself wondering how much I have to help her to get accommodations for her issues and how much I should just tell her that there are always different kinds of coaches and you have to learn how to deal with criticism if you want to get better.

    To add insult to injury, the issue of feedback is only one of the many problems I have had where the teachers and instructors fail to heed my concerns about things that cause my daughter excess hardship in practice; things such as playing the music so loud that she has to cover her ears and cringe during practice and, yet, they still. won’t. turn. it. down.

    My daughter and I talk about the value of hard-work, goal setting, losing as an opportunity to get better and above all, enjoying the process and having fun ALL the time. I have gone to great lengths to show respect for the studio and all the teachers in front of her and use our conversations as a way to model good sportsmanship and coping skills, but secretly, I am fuming and feeling like the studio is utterly incapable of handling a special needs athlete.

    I’m really having trouble finding the balance between mom, coach and dance parent, and worse, I feel singled out, blamed and shamed every time I try to advocate for her. To be fair, I don’t think that is anyone’s intent, they do their best, but that is how it comes across to me.

    So I will continue to hold my arms out, and do my best to balance on the tightrope that is now my life, wavering back and forth between dance mom, coach, and parent of a special needs child.

    Do you have any stories to share about your neuroatypical child and the obstacles you’ve faced? Feel free to share in the comments!

  • A Product Review of the “Mindful Powers” App

    Product:  Mindful Powers App for iOS Devices

    Price:  Free with In App Purchases of $4.99

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    My Rating: 20/10

    Overview:  If I could be in LOVE with an App, I would be in love with THIS APP.  For years as a competitive skating coach, I have had to consistently research, re-write and figure out how to best apply the basics of mental training and mindfulness for my very young students with limited time and resources.  I am the type of coach who firmly believes we MUST start to sew the seeds of mental training EARLY and OFTEN for our young athletes and finding the time and the “kid friendly” material for my littlest of skaters was always a struggle.  Cut to my most recent experience of being a mom to a 6-year-old who struggles with anxiety and all of it’s physical symptoms, and this app has been a lifesaver. If I had the means and resources to open my own training centre, (I still dream of this) all my athletes would have a tablet with this app as the FIRST app to start the mental training process.

    Best Feature of the Book: This App is based on contextual behavioural science, and by using the app, students in early and middle age childhood will grow the following skills:  
    •              Calmness & relaxation
    •              Stress & anxiety reduction 
    •              Concentration & focus
    •              Navigating big emotions
    •              Getting along with others

    In a nutshell, this app covers all the most basic and critically important mental training skills for our youngest athletes in their most formative years.

    Pros:  Every single thing about this app appeals to young children.  From the central protagonist called a “Flibbertigibbet™”, who asks children to soothe him (and themselves) by using deliberate, thoughtful, repetitive, tactile stimulation, to the Mindful Stories which are, in fact, informational meditations read by a young child, designed to connect them with their feelings and thoughts, this app is colorful, engaging and dynamic in every way for young users.

    Cons:  The exercises grow incrementally time-wise from one to the next, with the first being only a couple of minutes to the next being a few minutes, and so on and so on. I felt that there should be a reduced increase in time between exercises, as the youngest users need more exercises in the 2-3-minute range and the app jumps quite quickly to the 10 minute range with some of the Mindful Play exercises. This is my ONLY small criticism of the app however, and it was hard to find even one criticism of it to be very honest.

    Conclusion:  My daughter begs to use this app and loves it to death.  I can hardly wait to start to apply it in the field with my youngest skaters in hopes it will teach them valuable tools for relaxation, emotional control, anxiety reduction, focus and mindfulness. I highly, recommend you check it out and add it to your coaching toolkit.

  • A Book Review of “The Talent Code”, by Daniel Coyle

    Price:  Kindle Price CDN $15.99

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    My Rating:  10/10

    Overview:  As skating coaches, we spend all our time looking for talent, assessing talent, and learning how to cultivate talent.  Intuitively, we all know that talent takes time to grow, and the way to develop talent over time is through mindful practice and dedication. 

    “The Talent Code” takes a microscopic lens and scalpel to the talent myth and dissects every aspect of unlocking unseen potential, in athletes, artists and everyday people.

    As a coach with a background in Kinesiology, and a particular interest in motor learning and neuroscience, this book validated many of my beliefs about talent when I first read it.  Since that reading many years ago, I now spend much of my coaching time teaching the “why” behind skill acquisition, instead of just focusing on the how or technique behind it.  The results have been incredible. 

    If you want to learn the secrets behind skill acquisition and mastery, on both sides of the equation-coach and/or student-then this book is for you.

    Coyle centres much of the book around myelin, and its role in neural development, a theory of skill acquisition that has existed for several years, but is just now becoming main stream.  This concept explains nearly everything that master coaches have known for years such as:

    • Practice doesn’t make perfect; DEEP practice makes perfect.
    • Mastery in a sport requires commitment and passion right from the beginning, if not you won’t want to dedicate yourself to the countless hours of repetition necessary to myelinate the neural pathways required.
    • Primal Cues such as belonging, scarcity and safety can help provide ignition for passion and commitment to a sport and we can tap into these cues and use them right at the grass roots level of talent development.

    This book should be required reading for every coach.  If you want to learn how to get the most out of your students and accelerate learning, this book explains the “why” behind the “how” and will give you strategies for a more accelerated learning process.

    Best Feature of the Book:  Coyle weaves a coherent and exciting narrative thread through the book and documents his journey carefully as he breaks the talent equation into parts and investigates each with intelligence and empathy. The picture he creates of the people he meets along the way is colorful, full of humor, and packed with insight into the human condition. Along the way we get a view of the behind the scenes struggles and triumphs of many of the worlds famous over-night success stories, which we learn were NOT in fact over-night success stories. 

    Just reading the Talent Code gives all of us all hope in how we learn, and that the daily grind of practice and repeated failure does in fact pay off with more success in our chosen endeavours. The Talent Code is equal parts endearing and inspiring, and will keep you engaged until the last page.

    Pros:  The way Coyle breaks down the talent equation into it’s parts and further breaks down each part into it’s various necessary components makes it easy for sports organizations, parents, coaches and athletes to tap into the processes he describes to accelerate their learning curve and develop their talent. The benefits to be gained from utilizing these theories to maximize athletic development, particularly in skating, are incredible.

    Cons:  None.  This is a great book.

    Conclusion:  The Talent Code, by Daniel Coyle, is fun, informative, and trans-formative. The scope, breadth and depth of knowledge you will gain from it, even if it just reaffirms the instinctual beliefs you have always incorporated into your coaching and explains them, is well worth the money.

    If you are in the business of developing talent, in any medium, “The Talent Code” is a must read.

    Have you read the Talent Code? What did you think? Share your thoughts in the comments below, and if you liked this review, please, share with your friends!